40 Pounds Lost, I don't Plan on Finding Them

This was me, in 2008.

The sad part is, this isn't even me at my heaviest.

I actually had another baby in 2009 and put on about 

20 more pounds.

I was miserable, I hated looking at myself in a mirror.

Let alone have pictures taken of myself.

I felt like I was always doomed to be the fat girl.

Especially going to my in laws.

I once broke a chair.

At their house.

I was MORTIFIED!

I hated shopping for clothes.

Nothing I liked ever fit me.

I am 5'3 and I have really short legs.

So to find pants that would fit me in the waist. 

They would always drag on the ground since I wasn't tall enough for them.

I cried alot about my weight.

Looking at this picture I can see how uncomfortable I am.

I am trying to hide how ugly I felt.

I tried a bunch of crappy trendy diets.

They all promised the same thing.

Lose weight fast!

And while I did lose ten pounds at first.

I was starving myself.

One diet I ate plain chicken and spinach all the time.

Oh and boiled egg whites.

Which the thought of makes my stomach turn now.

The SSG said to me one night,

'Can you see yourself eating like this for the rest of your life?'

It hit me like a brick wall.

If I had to eat plain spinach and egg whites for the rest of my life I would

DIE!!!

Not just because I wouldn't get the essential nutrients my body needed.

But because I love food that much!

So I ate like a crazed lunatic for a few days.

Then on Friday March 6, 2011 at 10:30 a.m. 

I headed on down to my local Weight Watchers.

It was exactly what I needed.

A lifestyle change, not a diet.

And here I am 

40 pounds and much, much, MUCH happier later.

I feel comfortable in my skin.

I can wear white!

I haven't done that since I was a teenager.

I can run around with my kids.

The best feeling was when my oldest boy was able to wrap his arms all the way around me.

To give me a big hug.

This is a journey that I am glad I was brave enough to face.

5% Goal

Yesterday was a very special day! 

I made my 5% goal at WW! 

I got this big sticker to put in my little blue book!

I never thought a sticker could feel soooooooo good!!!

At this point I don't know why I waited so long to join WW.

Maybe I thought that I wouldn't do very well.

Maybe I was scared that I would FAIL.

But this is results, and I am loving every minute of it!

I can eat real food!!!

I am learning how to eat better, instead of some fad diet.

I am in a better mood!

I went into a clothing store yesterday and for the first time in years I wasn't so frustrated to the point of tears!

It was nice to actually leave a fitting room and take something with me I was going to buy!

Linking to:
http://boermanramblings.blogspot.com/2011/04/fat-friday-link-up.html

 

A new love

I have never liked drinking water.

It is plain...

It is boring...

There is nothing exciting about it...

Poor water you are not my friend.

Now my diet Pepsi (such a rebel right?)

You are wonderful

But I need to give you up...

We need a clean break.

I promise it is me not you...

But don't worry we can still be friends.

While at my weekly WW meeting someone mention this new wonderful water enhancer.

You can imagine my excitement when I heard of a way to make water less boring.

It's name is MIO!!!

They have a bunch of different flavors.

My favorite right now is Sweet Tea.

I love sweet tea and it tastes so yummy in my plain old water.

In fact I have probably had at least 100 ounces of water today.

YAY FOR ME!!!

Boo for having to go to the bathroom about 50 times.

If you are looking for a way to get water in but tired of the plain taste.

I highly suggest trying it.

You won't be disappointed!!!

I have a fun tutorial to share tomorrow!!!

See you then!!!

Today is already a great day...



Today was the 4TH time weighing in for WW.

I was a little nervous to say the least.

Since last week I only lost half a pound...

So I got up out of my bed early in the morning...

Like 8 a.m. (Saturday is my sleep in day)

I got dressed and went on to my meeting hoping for a better week

I waited my turn, over hearing other members great success.

It got to my turn.

I took of my shoes, handed the lady my cards.

Then sheepishly asked if she was ready for me to get on the scale of doom.

I took a sigh and step on carefully so that the scale would think I was light.

Then the wonderful woman told me...

Down THREE POUNDS!!!!

I no lie I fist pumped in the air.

So today is already a good day.

Oh and Weight Watchers works.

Hope you all have a great weekend!!!